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@stable_genius I have the authority, I set the rules and listen to the community.
Who says 'poorly enforced' - Tell that to everyone I turn down.
FOSSVPS is effectively a charity and if I believe I can be charitable I will - would you not do the same?
Rules without flexibility or improvements are just stupid.
Then you should make that explicit, something like
Rule number 1
The rulebook is whatever I say it is.
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Rule number 2
Go to rule #1
@stable_genius You must be so proud of your irrelevant comments.
Instead of crap - just answer the question "would you not do the same".
Everyone, hello again,
My name is "مصطفی", It's an Arabic name and it means "the chosen one" You can write it in English like Mustafa, Mostafa, Moustafa, Mostapha... but the most common ones are Mostafa and Mustafa. Tbh I used Mustafa on this post just because my ADHD brain wanted to match the "u" with my username mustwoah 🤣
My life is not a movie. It's my reality. I'm living it. I'm going through each moment of it. and it's all as real as it gets. What's happening in this post is exactly why I never reached out and asked for any help in real life or online, and relied on myself my whole life.
Throughout my life I developed this big fear of constantly being judged because of my identity crisis. I have to prove myself to everyone in life, like I'm a prisoner for life. Every day of my life feels like judgment court and I have to deal with accusations of being a fraud because of my state all the time and it gets me paralyzed.
And now thanks to people like @ascicode, @stable_genius I’l notl allow myself ever to do this to myself again.
I never fit anywhere. I'm a human fallacy with my situation. I don't even get the most basic human needs. All I wish for and want is to have the human experience just like other humans. Is that a crime? If I had papers and a job and a bank account and etc. I wouldn't be in this situation where everyone is judging me now in the first place.
Some people live comfortably their whole life not knowing what struggle even means or feels like. So for them everything seems so available and easy to reach that they allow themselves to oppose people who never had it easy and stomp on them and crush what they see simple but it’s other's hopes and dreams. They don't care to look into people's lives because they don't see others as humans living around them on this planet each having their own personal experince. They just only see themselves and live in their own bubble. They would never know how it feels to be oppressed and never know what life is when you born into a life where your freedom been taken before you even have any saying in it and all you know about freedom is what you see other’s have and you wish for and they call it a sense of freedom and you call it hope to have freedom someday, just hope and hope and...
Well, Nobody knows about my life. Being born and living stateless it's like I totally don't exist as a human. My life is just pure constant struggle so I'm used to all kinds of dark things coming my way. I know I'm already living through hell my whole life but I can’t give in to that so I'm a believer, I'm hopeful and curious and I never give up till I get out of this hell and get my piece of heaven (my rights).
You can't even imagine how it's to grow up and live as stateless, let alone as an Iraqi living in Iran where I belong to nowhere. Even though I'm at home I have no home.
I'm not being shy about any of this anymore. I was skeptical at first to make a post and I was overthinking it because I knew what would happen. But I took up courage because Mike really helped me so much even though I tired him extremely and wasted so much of his time and he just kept working with me and teaching me all along the way without any complaint and never gave up on me and now if what I'm revealing about my life is going to show people what souls like Mike and other unkown helpful supportive souls out there is doing really benefit anyone who goes through hardships like me and give them hope I'm doing it all for that...
As you all might know Iran has constant conflicts with the US and Israel for the past 47 years and 4 months ago Israel and the US struck Iran and started a whole fleet of operations that made the government cut all access to all forms of communications from internet to calls and SMS and even landlines. The whole country went in a total communication blackout for nearly 3 months. So as Mike informed you all about the date I applied so you can look it up easily or see this article for the date and details about how Iran began partially restoring access to the global internet on May 26, 2026. This ended a record 88-day total internet blackout that was imposed on February 28, 2026, during the war with the United States and Israel.
https://www.dw.com/en/iran-turns-internet-back-on-but-old-restrictions-remain/a-77331981
So you can see I applied after the internet came back on in Iran. Because when I was desperately searching for anything that can be useful in my situation I asked DeepSeek for free VPS solution that can help me get back to the real world and work and learn. It gave me this link
https://fossvps.org/green_site.html
and told me to email the founder of FOSSVPS because in real life he's a friendly guy from New York City and gave an email address that I sent an email and I got a reply from it that informed me to contact FOSSVPS support. I told my story and situation and the project I was working on before the war and then Mike replied to me in no time and asked me for further explanations and to register here also...
At that time when I contacted them I had no hope at all. I already was through a 90-day war that I even lost more than what I had before. We were under constant fire and living in fear of even having the chance to stay alive for the next day and then 10 days into war tragedy struck and we lost my uncle the brother of my father and his kids my cousins. 2 sons and 1 daughter and they were just kids. His eldest son was 14 and his second was his 9 yo daughter and his youngest was his 6 yo son in a missile attack on their home, me and my family and our relatives were all devastated, most of our relatives are living in Iraq but there was no way of communication to them not even calls or SMS or even landlines were working. And the only way was connecting to government issued SIM cards for people working with the government named white SIM card or SIM card pro so I went and borrowed $50 from a guy that is our neighbor just to buy a connection time from other guy who had one of those SIM cards so my family and I can have a video call for an hour with my grandpa and other uncles and our relatives outside of Iran and the situation is so awful I had to go through all of that just for a mere connection nothing else I mean I still didn’t even pay the debt for the connection yet...
18 days after ceasefire, 21 days ago, we lost my uncle the only brother my mother had.. He lived in Lebanon and he was on his job when a drone attack happend in the south and he died in the attack now his 2 daughters have to live all alone as orphan with all this pressure and trauma.
Alhamdulillah, we’re alive and still standing, I'm just trying to keep my head up and not lose hope.
Before the war all the help I had was from an American lady named Amanda that we stumbled upon each other in Instagram comment and when she started to know about my life she asked her brother DJ who's the leader and drummer in an underground rock band called Bittersweet Revenge to give me opportunities so every couple of months or so when they had a new release or an event or something she would ask me to do things for them so I did graphic design and posters and flyers and logos and web pages and video edits and mixing and beat making etc. and every time I would get something like $20 to $30 to $65 at max sent to me by her to my Nobitex wallet in crypto and then I would stretch it for months and exchange it to toman whenever I'm in need to spend moeny and I can’t get any...
But a little over a year ago sha had an incident that made her distance herself from life and even though I contact her constantly I don't get a reply anymore and I asked her brother and the band about her they said she needs time to recover and she's distant from everyone now and the band was working with me through her and now they won’t give me any projects anymore.
My father is 57 years old I'm his firstborn. I have to help to take care of my family. I have to work labor jobs that hire and pay by the day and the cost of living in Iran because of sanctions and war keeps skyrocketing as I'm typing now $100 equals to 17 million toman and the monthly salary of top highest paid labor jobs are around 12 to 15 million at max and that's for normal people in best case scenario and I'm just trying to survive so at night when I have a bit of free time I come to the tiny basement in our home which is like an office/library for my father and my brother where they research and study religious seminary literature and books… to use the only laptop we have and learn by trial and errors about anything I encounter and I can get my hand on that can benefit me and I also do anything I can on my phone during my busy time too.
I already working on it and trying everything possible I can try to end the struggling other than the very short temporary labor jobs that mostly won't last for more than a day I can't find any ways of legit income that lasts here in my city but sometimes I get lucky and I find people like these companies I was working for https://zulfiqar-company.com/ and https://www.instagram.com/imic.academy/ and I do design works and web dev and WordPress management etc. but they only able to hire me because they’re not Iranian so the law doesn't apply to them and they're were in my city so I could access them directly and work for them but they took their business elsewhere after a while to other countries and rebrand and scale and hired new people there also ometimes I get to help finish WordPress sites and their themes and some web developmet like I this web app I made https://amd.home.kg/ for friends from university and school but anyways with current economy in Iran the whole nation is struggling now..also I was building https://aubu.vercel.app/ before the war… for now I'm nearly done with my portfolio site which is hosted on FOSSVPS on https://ammumostafa.ir/ and I have this idea inspired by my father's library of old books and my brother's problem with old handwritten manuscripts and books to solve it…
For anyone thinking they sense something odd in me or strange vibes emanating from me I can provide as much proof as you want on myself and everything I said, If you want you can even contact me directly, talk to me and video call me to see for yourself that I'm a real person and everything I said is the truth…I have only this one account and only requested once and after Mike checked all the details and understood my situation then FOSSVPS gave me access to the resource.
I'm used to see everything turn against me.
For the whole world I'm an outcast a misfit and an anomaly… I'm very used to having nothing and losing what I got so I have nothing to lose at all times...
I'm not obligated to prove myself this way to anyone but I do it all now out of my respect for Mike because he really worked hard with me through so many problems that my lack of experience, caused and he fixed everything I broke and never made me feel helpless and stupid or anything and instead kept encouraging me to keep going and kept teaching m and he's a real life hero because he did everything purely for the cause he believes in and I'm willing to do anything to keep his respect higher and higher and this man made me feel like I belong and that's why I made this post here because there was a promise I belong here too and that now it making me feel ashamed because I see how Mike is getting pressed.
I only wanted to share my experience and thank him for the greatest one on one support ever for treating me with high worth and also to let others know how there are people like Mike who's making a difference in the world in this way at any place or position…
Dear Mike @msat
I'm truly deeply sorry for all the trouble I caused you, man.
You know abou my life now so you know losing the VPS is not going to do any damage.
I already learned so many new things that I couldn't even imagine I could learn this fast using this VPS but I can't see you go through all this trouble because of me so if you think it will fix everything just as I told you before too, you can revoke my access to the VPS and end the discussion and delete this post too to clear the air and I'll go and no one ever will hear from me and I won't be bothering anyone ever. I promise.
And for anyone who still has any doubts or suspicions about me, about my story, about my situation,
I have nothing to hide so to help to put your minds at ease, I attached pictures of myself and my setup in my workspace.
I'm not afraid to show you my reality because this is my life and I've been living it every single day I've already opened up about my life here anyway.
My comment above is far more relevant than your retorts.
And no, I would not do that, I would be very careful when making rules and all rule changes would be made very clear.
The only crap here is your lax self forgiving attitude, that attitude can be healthy in some settings but in this case it is not a good attitude.
Just grow up.
All rule changes were made very clear and discussed openly - if only you read them !!!
I hope you are proud of your comments considering what Mustafa is going through.
Leave Mustafa alone, he is busy burning madly through AI tokens. Let him be.
Do you always throw a tantrum when you can't get things your way? Your maturity needs to be worked on pal, it needs to be worked on REAL HARD
By the way, you do realize that telling someone to grow up is a sure sign of immaturity, don't you. Trying to assert false authority is what kids do not what grown ups do.
You do realize that. Dont you?
EDIT: So we have both @mustwoah and @mustwoah thanking your post above, two likes from one single handle. How is that? Truly amazing.
@angstrom
How is it possible for a single user to thank the same post twice?
@stable_genius what's your problem, man?
maybe you need take a step back and and take a look at the world around you and ask yourself why kindness offends you so much.
@msatt I'm very sorry about al of this...tell me, how can fix this?
I feel ya man, nowhere near as big of an emergency as yours but I am just as thankful because having the FOSSVPS helped me shovel data when one of my local drives died. That was while @Not_Oles was still running the project but @msatt was extremely nice and understanding to me after taking over as well. That's (one of the reasons) why I'll still support the project however I can despite leaving as a user months ago.
(At least I do what little I can for your people by running TOR bridges; the traffic from Iran from February on has been insane and I hope everything gets solved for the best ASAP.)
Bridges are great, thanks for running a bridge!
If you have any other servers (or IPs not used for bridges), you can also set up snowflake or a webtunnel, which have even better success rates in Iran!
"Here are the rules. Exceptions are made on a case-by-case basis." is a completely valid way of doing things. @msatt's purpose isn't to enforce rules for the sake of enforcing rules, but to act based on risk management.
I only see one like. Caching issue?
Try not to worry too much about it. This forum is full of drama and people are hard on each other. There are so many scammers and fakes around that people are naturally skeptical, especially when LLM translators are involved.
I'm so sorry that happened. What's happening is absolutely vile and those committing those war crimes should be held accountable. Just know that pretty much the entire world now despises those responsible.
It was corrected.
I'll take a screenshot next time.
Don't worry Mustafa - you can carry on learning and benefitting, I am happy to oblige. You are a beta tester of convoy so carry on
Hello.
We’d like to thank everyone who contributes and supports us. We’d especially like to highlight the excellent work of @msatt, and yours @mustwoah as well, for your post and comment about us.
Alexhost has decided to give you a free year of VPS service!
Please check your DMs.
We’re doing this because we think you’ll really put it to good use, and of course, by making this post, you’ve truly shown that we make a difference.
Best Regards,
Alexhost
@alexhost -
@mustwoah I did say
Now you can practice secure networking / sharing